being in love with the past
is one of the painful feelings
I’ve ever felt
everyday is a suffer
on how will I tell to myself
that everything can’t go back
to where it was before
I let the sadness invade me
and it breaks me more
it’s sad
I’m getting hurt more and more,
but, I guess it helps me
I’m slowly moving
I can now control myself
and I’m proud of it
I am now open
I can talk to someone freely now
I was so stupid being locked from you
It’s funny right
It took years for me
just to accept all of this
But you
It’s just only months
and you have already replaced me
good for you
and after years of waiting
you finally found that someone
someone that completes you
It’s so funny
that I’m always looking for your presence
everytime, everyday
It’s so funny
that I close myself
to someone like you
who don’t care about me
anymore
things changed
people changed
maybe I was just
In love with the idea of your love
but not to you anymore,
so long before I realized it
maybe I need to hurt myself first
before I can realize everything
I made myself prison from your love
not knowing that I don’t deserve that,
but, now that I am free
from your love
It’s time to heal now
It’s been a painful 8 years
and now
I’m finally letting you go
from my heart and mind
I can now finally say
I’m not in love with the past
anymore
- Prisoner of your love from the past - April 12, 2020
