Two hours.
It takes two hours to believe in something I would only believe for myself.
And, it’s done.
For 28 years I finally was able to see my reality.
It took so long, it drained me.
I totally lost it. Every hope, understanding, and patience. I lost it all.
And for what it’s worth, my sanity is what I only care about right now.
I once wronged other people who cared for me owing to the fact that I was hurt.
I won’t let that happen again.
I won’t lose myself to feed your satisfactions.
I’m done being the person who always understands.
I’m done being the person who cared so much forgetting I have my own life in front of me.
I never intended to hurt anyone especially those who I love the most but I also don’t intend to pretend I’m okay with everything.
Every decision that I make right now is painful.
It’s definitely not what I want but it’s what I need.
I hope I won’t turn into the person they are trying for me to be.
I just want to live a life where I am free.
A life where your loved ones are NOT the ones who are ruining you.
