Maybe the truth is,
All the fears suddenly came back.
I kept fighting, but it doesn’t go away.
The fear of losing someone,
The fear of fighting alone on your way there,
The fear of believing and then you end up with nothing.
With all of those thoughts I have right now,
There’s only one thing that is clear.
I need to pull myself back together.
Even if it’s just me and no one else but me.
But then again, the fear is there.
The fear that I might be able to settle this way,
And forget that there could be a “you and me”.
Maybe that’s all for now,
We still don’t know what the future holds.
But whatever happens,
I want to thank you.
We both know that I’ve once conquered this fear
and it won’t happen without you.
I’ve never seen this coming since the day we’ve been together,
But here we are, on our separate ways.
No idea if our own ways will still lead us back together.
In case it won’t, I’m really grateful that once in my life,
I had you.
And yes, my moments with you
were also one of the most precious moments in my life.
Thank you and I’m sorry
if I didn’t become what you’ve expected me to be.
In my heart, I will always treasure your one wish-
for me to be happy and healthy
in body, in mind and in heart.
That would lead me to loving myself more than anybody else could.
