Things are better, I believe.
But there are times when it still feels like it’s not.
For a while, I want to stare at nothing
And let those around me pass by
As if they are these tiny little particles
That I don’t even see, feel, or care about.
I kept on living with gratitude ‘coz, Why not?
I know I have a lot to be grateful for
But there are just some days when nothing feels right
And even if everything’s in place,
I still wonder what’s the point of this life
Now I understand why tears suddenly want to drop
Why do things suddenly get dark, and why it feels so heavy
I can no longer hide from it, I have to face it
And this time, I hope I can burst everything out from the past
So I can finally live up to my present and future.
Yes, I will no longer run away from you
But I hope you’ll also understand,
that I’m no longer that warm little girl from the past
You made me change that.
I may still not want or be ready to see you, but I’ll try.
There was once a guy who told me…
Asking my what-ifs will lead me to no good
And I do believe him
But I’m stubborn, and I still seek for answers
And at some point, I’m glad I did.
And to that guy, who once told me to stop asking my what-ifs,
I now no longer do. I make sure not to regret a thing
For a couple of days, I doubted, If I didn’t give it my all
What if I did give things another try?
Now I know and can accept why I didn’t.
Now I’m relieved.
